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I don't even want to weigh myself today ..... i have had so much stress over this week and the past two days have been a numb blur amongst which i realised i must of consumed a weeks worth or calories..... shoot me now .

phew

I finally did it ,managed to fast today ,, think I'm back to myself now , what a relief ! xx

:(

Binged today. Like a real binge not these oh my god I ate 300 calories crap, must of been way over the 2000 daily  recomended not that i normally eat that much . These episodes seem to be coming more regular which is a bit frightening , pretty stressed out at the moment , and my way of dealing with it seems to be with restricting or fasting for 3-5 days and then eating like a hippopotamas damn my emotional eating !!! oh well tomorrow I get to ride both my horses which will hopefully distract me ! nothing like a bit of quality with my rather large four legged friends ! <3

todays fast ?

technically today isn't over , but I have work in a minute and I don't finish untill half 11 tonight . I've had the most unproductive day ever .. woke up at 12 and sat on the internet for about two hours .... and now I'm waiting for my lift , I hate days like this when I wake up so late that the whole day is gone , just ate a chocolate raisin , I know its tiny but I still think it leaves a blemish on my water onkt fast today .... meh , maybe I will actually have some form of willpower tomorrow ! It doesnt help I've had the flu for the past week and it still hasn't gone , it will all be worth it in the end just wish this cold woul F off !

Todays bargain buy ! whole outfit for £35 ,, and for once my legs don't look like such thunder thighs .... oh how I love camera angles

How cute is my dog !?

Today was a good day

Went shopping with Amy which provided me with some much needed retail therapy , I don't realise how much I needed it . I've been so logged up with work lately that my social life and quality time with my horses has been seriously lacking , it was nice to just destress and pretty much blow my cash on even more makeup and clothes ^.^ Eating wise I have been pretty good aswell ,  I allowed myself to have a small vanilla latte from costa's , don't even know the calories in there which scares me a little but I will make up for that with my water fast tomorrow , I caved in last night aswell and had two rice cakes which are 38 calories each so could of been worse I suppose ! And big woopee for me, Ive gone down a dress size ! still couldnt help but notice how i towered over everyone , being 5'11 can be so depressing sometimes >.<